Goldfish

When I was last unraveling the doc (dr. murphy) told me that I am the goldfish. And because I am the goldfish all I can see is the goldfish bowl. Because he is not a goldfish he can see the overall picture, and advise me accordingly. Right now I'm feeling a bit goldfish-y again. But there is no doctor here who knows me or my history. Do I pick a doctor out of the phone book and try to explain about the fish and bowl? Do I muddle through? I find trying to explain my inner thoughts and feelings so challenging. Difficult *and* embarassing. Could I be lucky enough to find a great doctor twice?